Tuesday, August 21, 2012

I don't matter

I am beset by the ironies of my life. This were the words of
a Captain Nathan Algren in the movie The Last Samurai
and here I use those words now. I am beset by the ironies
 of my life. Here I am, an idiot, in University studying subjects
 that train me to think in a specific way, or the closest way the
system that can pull me towards to. Once the time comes for me to die,
 do you think what I know matters?

Being able to do something good for the world with
 what you know before you die. That is a "good" reason to justify
 why a person should study. Personally I don't think it matters at all.
We are just trying to screw ourselves over more, or trying to repair
the damage that we our ancestors have caused and left for us to notice
and take charge of those mistakes.

We can do something good no matter where we are, the question is
who notices the work that we have put in. We are all just idiots playing
God in our own lives and affecting the lives of others. We seek knowledge
 when we should be seeking truth. We fall into traps of society that
knowledge equates to truth every single time. We ignore the truth
and seek knowledge that amuses us but in no way enlightens you
to the realities of our situation.

 Studying. Working.

It's a system that we idiots thought of and it's the best way for
the people that sit on top to control us. No matter where we are
we are in a ladder that we are always stepped on. Forget corporate
ladders and the need for the laws of natural selection. Is it not in our
 human nature for us to retaliate? This is probably me retaliating,
but I think there is a need to retaliate. Galileo stood true to his discovery
even when the dominant church at the time suppressed his ideas and
tried it's best from spreading beyond the walls of his home.

What if we are going through the same thing as Galileo? That we are
 being controlled by higher forces of the same species? Quite a bit of
our education are based on theories, and in the free dictionary theories
are assumptions, speculations, a belief that guides and we ignorantly
forget the fact that we are basing our knowledge on said theories.
Not to say that there are no laws that have stood strong, there are,
just that they are severely outnumbered compared to theories.

 I salute those who have managed to go through this system and
use the same tools to do good but suffer for their decision to do so.
 I too wish to do the same but in time my mind may change
so as will the minds of those who go through the same process.

In time I hope this will serve a reminder to me of my purpose of
studying. To go through the system and use it to do good and in my
lifetime be able to shed some truth as well.

Before I sign off, let me end with a verse from the bible that I recently read.
Ephesians 4:25 Therefore, Having put away falsehood, let each one of you speak the truth with his neighbor, for we are members of one another.

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